Here it is after 11:30. Unable to sleep. Getting pains about every 30 minutes at 10 on the pain scale. Almost totally exhausted. Passing a lot of blood into the bag. Don't know how much more of this I can stand. Loaded with pain med's and not helping. Feels better when I stand but can't stand all night. The pain takes off the top of my head when it hits, but only lasts for maybe 5-10 seconds, but leaves me totally weak. Just don't know what to do. Would go to Hosp, but what the fuck can they do, I'm already catheterized. Going nuts here. Pray for me.
Sorry to dump. I know nobody wants to hear this but I have to vent on this. I have had a lot of pain in my life, twice combat wounded in Viet Nam, but this one is doing me in. Again, sorry to be such a bummer. JP