MonStar's Daily PE Journal - Page 3

MonStar · 07-21-2002, 12:54 AM

DAY 51
Saturday, July 20, 2002

Rest.

Sore cock. :( <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="frown.gif" />

MonStar · 07-23-2002, 11:30 AM

DAY 52
Sunday, July 21, 2002

15, :30 second ulis with uli thing @ base using PJer for squeeze

15 minutes uli thing @ base with full 110% erection

MonStar · 07-23-2002, 11:35 AM

DAY 53
Monday, July 22, 2002

Rest.

MonStar · 07-23-2002, 11:36 AM

DAY 54
Tuesday, July 23, 2002

15, :30 second ulis with uli thing @ base using PJer for squeeze

20 minutes uli thing @ base 110% erection

Nice and fat with uli thing @ base! Wish it would stay like that.

COMMENTS: Been having some big time issues with my girlfriend and her exbf's dick. I cant repeat that in my head. "His shaft was thicker than yours, and his head a lot bigger."

We see a guy in a Speedo at Dorney park, shes says, "well-endowed much!?" Shes online looking up guys dicks. This is the picture that she told me she was looking at online.

<a href="http://www.geocities.com/monstar1120/goal2.jpg" target="_blank">http://www.geocities.com/monstar1120/goal2.jpg</a>

This guy is probably a good 9" BP and probably a 7" shaft girth I would say. With a good 7" head girth too. Ill probably NEVER get this big. I mean this is practically want she wants. Either this. Or maybe this...

<a href="http://www.geocities.com/monstar1120/Mushroom0701.jpg" target="_blank">http://www.geocities.com/monstar1120/Mushroom0701.jpg</a>

Either way. Theyre FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR from what I am. I mean like far from it. I dont have a big fat a*s head. And I dont have a huge 7" girth shaft etc. She went over what good a big head is. She said (1) its really good visually because then everything looks big. The shaft looks big and the head looks big. She said its good vaginally because she can feel the coronal ridge so much when you go in. She said orally it may make it harder though.

So basically shes saying. I want a big headed cock. Not yours. She said that at the least a head the same size as the shaft would give a nice bump at the coronal ridge, and still look pretty big.

She ended our conversation by saying that the only dick that wouldnt look big, and wouldnt have a bump so wouldnt feel that good is a head smaller than the shaft. Well ladies and gentlemen my head is 1" smaller than my shaft in girth.

I can thank my girlfriend for saying that my dick doesnt look or feel good.

She said they all have benefits. The only benefits a small head has is that when I go inside her her pussy molds to my small head girth, and then when I go all the way in the shaft feels huge. Whooptie fucking doo.

I want a HUGE FAT HEAD!! Jesus I wish it would just happen.

What should I do guys!! Shes basically saying that I am out of proportion, and that a bigger head would feel and look a lot better. HELP guys please. I dont want to just dump her. But I am so insecure about my member's shape and head.

:( :( :( :( <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="frown.gif" />

goingstrongat forty · 07-23-2002, 04:21 PM

IronMan,
It seems to me that your g/f is doing a lot of comparing between you and her ex. Sounds like she is hung up on her ex and expects you to be equal or even more endowed than him. Each of us as individuals have our own unique physical qualities/characteristics that make us in part who we are. If your g/f is trying to mold you into what she needs you to be in order to please her sexually; then, better ask yourself if it is worth it. I realize we all want to be all we can be. Who wouldn't? All of this is my own personal opinion but it still seems that your g/f is the one w/ the problem and not you.

Trunk · 07-24-2002, 05:11 PM

Frankly, there isn't much you can do. I stopped PJing for a while, mainly because it doesn't seem to make any real difference for me over time. Then again, very few things seem to do much more than just build up the thickness of the tendons at the base. I'm still trying to figure out how to improve on the vertical PJ. I'm convinced that verticals with a PJ-style movement is the real key to girth. I have gotten actual measurable gains in my head by holding it in a fully engorged state for 15 second intervals, and repeating that 10-15 times 3-4 times a day. Aside from that, I wish I could help.

As far as the girl goes, I've met girls that you could barely fit a finger into. I'd find one of them if you can only satisfy your current girl with a pringles-can-cock. We're with you, her attitude isn't going to help your effort.
take care,
Trunk

5x5_6/8ths · 07-25-2002, 12:55 AM

hey there ironman, i totally understand where you are coming from. though your length is quite a bit longer than mine, you're shaped like me mine.
i've been married for just over 7 years, and my wife said exactly the same thing that your girlfriend said. before my wife and i even had sex, she asked as she undid my pants, "do you have a big cockhead, do you have big balls?"....well although the answer to both of those questions was no, she was attracted to me enough that she wanted me. now, over time, she has been vocally showing her displeasure saying how she wish i was thicker....she was used to black guys (basketball college players) with 11 x 7+ range.......i am over her being upset by my size, or lack of - i should say.......and am doing this for myself.....if we end up splitting sometime soon, i will be sure to hook up with a lady who appreciates me for me, and is as tight as a vice grip........heheheheheh! yeah, right!
anyways ironman, or monstar......take it in stride and get over it.....don't let your girlfriend determine how you feel about yourself......it aint worth it.......laterz....

MonStar · 07-25-2002, 04:27 PM

5x5_6/8ths:

Damn that sucks man.

Your story was actually kind of sad to be honest. I too have a small cockhead and it really sucks.

<blockquote>quote:<hr />my wife said exactly the same thing that your girlfriend said.<hr /></blockquote>What specifically did you wife say that my girlfriend said out of curiosity? Just about bigger heads being better or what?

<blockquote>quote:<hr />before my wife and i even had sex, she asked as she undid my pants, "do you have a big cockhead, do you have big balls?"....well although the answer to both of those questions was no,<hr /></blockquote>Those were her exact words "do you have a big cockhead, do you have big balls?" Damn man thats kind of a freaky girl, but if the answer is no its almost just an opening for HUGE insecurities.

If you had a big fat round head and big plump balls imagine how great that would be though.

My girlfriend never really said much at first until I asked her if her exbf was big and she said that his shaft was thicker, and that his head was bigger and thicker.

Then she got into why bigger heads feel better etc. Actually very upsetting even to this day.

I am going to give ball pumping a shot as should you since your wife likes big balls.

MonStar · 07-25-2002, 04:31 PM

DAY 55
Wednesday, July 24, 2002

Rest. Sore cock.

MonStar · 07-25-2002, 04:33 PM

DAY 56
Thursday, July 25, 2002

15, :30 second ulis with uli thing @ base, using PJer for squeeze, squeezing in all difference places on the shaft

20 minutes uli thing tightened very tight at base filling shaft and head fully with blood

... Few hours later PREsex routine just to pump myself up a tad. :D :D

5 minutes high pressure pumping

- actually very pleasureable almost orgasmed in my pump.. no cock ring, no nothing, filled head completely got the dots on my head which tells me its fully engorged, and got the orange spots on my head too which tell me the same thing

two sets of 5 minutes of ball pumping

- actually pumped my balls up pretty good really giving the impressing of a huge buldge in my briefs, I am just PRAYING that there are no negative side effects to ball pumping like decresed test levels etc.

MonStar · 07-25-2002, 04:49 PM

Talked the other day with my girlfriend about dick shapes.

She came to the following conclusions.

#1 Head Bigger Than Shaft.
Vaginally: basically great vaginally, coronal ridge would feel incredible when penis entered vagina etc. Head much larger than shaft would allow a girl to really feel the guys head completely.
Orally: basically horrible. Tough time getting such a big head into a girls mouth. Would have to open up a lot to get it all the way in.
Visually: basically great - because it would make everything look big. A big shaft and a big head makes the guys dick look overall VERY big. She said the bigger the dick looks, the better - the more room it will take up inside her etc.

#2 Head Same Size As Shaft.
Vaginally: still good. Still a pretty good bump from the shaft to the head. Shaft would still bump out considerable from the shaft to the head. Maybe not as much as #1 but still good she said.
Orally: basically pretty damn good. Not too tough on a girls jaw and very suckable.
Visually: very good. Doesnt look as big as #1 but still looks fairly big. Also looks very proportionate which is a great thing she said. She hinted again and again that this was the ideal dick. Or this or #1.

#3 Head Smaller Than Shaft.
Vaginally: not good at all for the opening. However there is a plus she said. Just putting the head in would make a girls vagina mold to the small head size. Then when a guy entered his entire shaft the thickness of the shaft would feel incredible because her vagina had molded to the smaller head. But when it comes to entering a woman a small head is a huge negative.
Orally: great orally. Allows a woman to suck the head very easily and barely open her mouth. My head girth for example is something like 4.5" around. Pathetic I know but very suckable. The easiest to suck out of all 3.
Visually: not good at all. Gives the impression of a small penis and a thin penis. She said it doesnt look proportionate at all, and really looks like the head and shaft dont belong together. She said a smaller head immediately gives the impression of a small overall size.

I know some of these things she has said are harsh, but she was being very honest.

She said that length and girth matter, but she said I am more than fine when it comes to my length and my girth. She said shape is what really matters.

MonStar · 07-26-2002, 03:48 PM

DAY 57
Friday, July 26, 2002

10, :30 second ulis with uli thing @ base using PJer for squeeze

- This exercise is bruising up my shaft badly I am going to have to take some more rest days. Yesterday my girlfriend took out my dick and she got grossed out and was like "it looks like your dick was in a fight with Mike Tyson." Haha it was just black and purple for some reason.

10 minutes jelqing with overhand OK grip

- Decided to do some normal jelqing along with PJing just to get the best of both worlds, I get absolutely no pump or anything from regular jelqing at all.

10 minutes PJing with 4.5" cock ring @ base

- Nice pump and all that. Head was pretty fat afterwards along with shaft.

MonStar · 07-27-2002, 04:15 AM

Had sex with my girlfriend tonight and I gave her oral sex and she orgasmed from that, and then we fucked and she felt SO tight!! She said that my dick was too big for her and that it was barely fitting etc. It was literally an extremely tight fit it almost hurt she was so tight. I am not sure why.

Oh well made me happy. Felt pretty big etc. right after this.

MonStar · 07-27-2002, 05:37 PM

DAY 58
Saturday, July 27, 2002

Rest.

Not sore but a little discoloration. Going to take today off and hit up a good PE session tomorrow morning.

MonStar · 07-29-2002, 01:04 PM

Last night my girlfriend and I watched a porno. She kind of surprised me with it. She said it was home video and to put it on. I did and it was a porn. I felt completely SICK the entire time we watched it. A couple of the guys in the porn had big thick fat heads and I just couldnt deal with it.

Thinking that she was watching those dicks thinking "why cant I be with a dick like that." I felt so insecure I almost died. So many of them had big huge thick heads, thicker than the shaft. Why cant my dick be like that!?

I cant deal with this sh*t omg its driving me insane. She asked me to have sex with her afterwards and I said no way. I couldnt let her see my pathetic dick after seeing those huge guys in the porn.

:( :( :( :( <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="frown.gif" />

MonStar · 07-29-2002, 01:05 PM

DAY 59
Sunday, July 28, 2002

MonStar · 07-29-2002, 01:06 PM

DAY 60
Monday, July 29, 2002

Session I.

10, :30 second ulis with uli thing @ base, using PJer for squeeze

- this exercise gives me some major discoloration on my dick, applied Arnica after this

10 minutes PJing with 4.5" cock ring @ base

MonStar · 07-30-2002, 02:59 PM

CURRENT SIZE
July 30, 2002

Erect Head Girth: 4.5" :( :(
Erect Head Width: 1.6 - 1.65" :( :(
Erect Head Length: 1.4 - 1.45" :( :(

Hate my head size!! The guys in the porn my girlfriend and I watched probably had a head length of about 2", a width of about 2-2.5" and a head girth of probably 5.5-6" ...

Erect Bone-Pressed Length: 7.5 - 7.6"

Same length pretty much.

Erect Girth Midshaft: 5.5"
Erect Width Midshaft: 1.9 - 1.95"
Erect Girth Base: 5.75"

Same old girth pretty much.

MonStar · 07-31-2002, 02:46 AM

DAY 61
Tuesday, July 30, 2002

15 minutes PJing with uli thing tightened @ base

MonStar · 07-31-2002, 05:40 PM

DAY 62
Wednesday, July 31, 2002

20 minutes PJing with uli thing fairly tight @ base, no discoloration though

- Uli thing works better than a cock ring and I get a squeeze / jelq effect from PJing with the uli thing @ base - awesome pump in shaft. And while I am PJing the head gets bigger than I have ever seen it before. Especially if I do some PC clamps while rolling PJ up shaft. :D :D

Pump-up Routine:

two sets 5 minutes high pressure pumping

- LOVE the look of my cock in the pump. Head is nice and fat, just the way that my girlfriend likes it.

MonStar · 08-03-2002, 03:00 PM

DAY 63
Thursday, August 1, 2002

Rest.

MonStar · 08-04-2002, 05:21 PM

DAY 64
Friday, August 2, 2002

15 minutes PJing with uli thing @ base

MonStar · 08-04-2002, 05:22 PM

DAY 65
Saturday, August 3, 2002

Rest.

MonStar · 08-04-2002, 05:22 PM

DAY 66
Sunday, August 4, 2002

15 minutes PJing with uli thing @ base

5 minutes high pressure pumping

- Good pump from this routine.

MonStar · 08-08-2002, 12:25 AM

DAY 67
Monday, August 5, 2002

Rest.

MonStar · 08-08-2002, 12:26 AM

DAY 68
Tuesday, August 6, 2002

Rest.

MonStar · 08-08-2002, 12:58 AM

DAY 69
Wednesday, August 7, 2002

15 minutes PJing with uli thing @ base

MonStar · 08-08-2002, 09:12 AM

Few inspirational pictures... :D :D

<img src="http://power-jelq.com/progress/ironman03.jpg" alt="" />

This guy was truly MASSIVE. Probably a good solid 9-10" long and I would say around 6-7" around. Nice thick head too which is exactly what I want. Would do anything to get this size. I would love to have this size and just know that I had a monster cock in my pants. That would be so much fun.

<img src="http://power-jelq.com/progress/ironman04.jpg" alt="" />

This is the picture that my girlfriend was looking at on the internet. This guys head is massive, monster shaft, and great length. My girlfriend didnt say she liked this but she didnt say anything bad about it. I think she would LOVE for me to be this big with that kind of head size. I think so at least.

<img src="http://power-jelq.com/progress/ironman05.jpg" alt="" />

Here is what my girlfriend claimed her exbf to be like actually. She said that his head was huge and his shaft was thinner. I would like to get my head thick and big like that too. She said the bigger the head the better sex feels and the bigger it looks. Thats all the motivation I need right there.

MonStar · 08-08-2002, 09:13 AM

DAY 70
Thursday, August 8, 2002

two sets 5 minutes high pressure pumping

MonStar · 08-09-2002, 09:24 PM

DAY 71
Friday, August 9, 2002

10 minutes high pressure pumping

10 minutes PJing with 4.5" cock ring @ base

5 minutes high pressure pumping

- Bad donut from tonights session I think. Oh well. Applied Arnica after my session.